I don’t know why I keep waking up so damn early. I want to fall asleep at 11p or 12 and wake up at 10a or 11a.

I don’t Think that is ever going to happen though. I’ve been waking up early for one reason or another for so long that, that is all I know how to do now.

I have been all sorts of up and down health wise on this trip. I guess maybe it’s the different air. There’s different allergens in Kansas than there are in Texas. I guess after some time I’ll get used to them, but thankfully I don’t have to because we are going home tomorrow.

Then I will start to feel somewhat normal.

I mean as normal as I get anyway.

I don’t ever think I will be totally normal, I’m always going to be a little weird. It’s just who I am. I used to try to hide it but, not any more. I embrace all weird things about myself and let them fly free.

That won’t ever change.

I’ll always be weird or strange.

I love that about myself.