I don’t know if anyone reads these, I hope you do, this week I have one entry from 2024.

If you do read my journal entries you also know this year I have been trying to write one page of my journal every day then each Sunday I post them here. I was doing 2025 and 2024 entries, but I had stopped writing in my journal consistently in 2024. This has been helping me stay consistent.

Monday February 17, 2025.

Yesterday we took a trip to Sams and I bought 96 pens. Bic Pens at that so these babies are going to last me for several years. We also bought a lot of food, but we really needed that so we are all good. I’ve also decided to add a 30 minute walk to my evenings. I have a treadmill I never ever use, I mean. I did at first but now it just sits in my fridge room collecting dust. Last I made my mom cry yesterday. Let me explain. Last year for my moms 80th birthday my sister and I adopted a cat for her. The cat is not a very good litter box user, so we got one of those fancy self cleaning ones. It was good, but recently the cat started pooping all over mom’s room and she doesn’t pick it up, she just sets things on top of it, I scolded mom pretty harshly and she started to cry. I’ve told her many times she needs to clean it up and also she feeds the cat way too much. Like the bowl is empty and she immediately refills it, I didn’t mean to make her cry, but she needs to stop.

The tread mill and my 96 Bic pens

Tuesday February 18, 2025

Every day when I wake up I watch my local news on channel 5. It’s what I’ve always watched since I was a kid. My dad watched channel 5 news, so I still watch the same news. I realized today that I’ve been watching this for about 40 years. When I was married to my first husband this bothered him for some reason. He would change it, then try to convince me that CNN was better, or Fox News, or CNBC. It bothered him that I watched the same news program. He used to tell me it was weird that I did this. My husband now does everything he can so I can watch channel 5 news. He never ever would tell me I was being weird. I actually think he wants me to be weird, he likes me better that way. Now, when the Today show comes on I change it, I used to love the Today show but not anymore. The people on there now annoy me. I would rather watch a cartoon show of the news rather than the Today show. That would be more entertaining.

Wednesday February 19, 2025

It’s cold today like 17 degrees cold. You gotta love Texas. Also Dan just told me the wind chill is -3. I am happy in my warm house, but later today, like after work, I have to pick up Harrison then take him to work. I’m hoping it warms up a little by then. I am not excited about it at all. When I would pick up William I would go to the tennis courts but I don’t think you can do that anymore. I have come to a conclusion on these pens. They get too cold. I mean we don’t really keep our living room warm. I put it in front of the heater and it still doesn’t work so I’ve got another pen. I could write about so much more of life if I didn’t have so much pen drama. Like how much I would love to have ice cream for breakfast even though it’s 17 degrees outside, or how I want to wash my sheets but Dan just went back to sleep on them. Oh well try again tomorrow.

Thursday February 20, 2025

Still cold here in Texas. The high is going to be 30 today. On the news they are telling people to protect their pipes and a friend of mines pipes froze. The are also deicing planes at the airports. Dan works on our Texas streets and freeways and he refused to work yesterday and today, it’s just too cold. My sinuses are killing me and I wanted to do something outside this weekend, so I am kind of bummed because I really wanted to go outside. The prices of things are also really killing me, everything just keeps going up, and up, I don’t know what, besides getting some kind of government assistance, I am going to do because groceries are already so incredibly high. It is my life now. The world isn’t what it was before and everything changes. I guess I need to get famous for something now then I can live comfortably. Or at least live with food to eat and warm clothes.

Friday February 21, 2025

I have spent a lot less time on my phone lately which is good because so much of my life is sucked away by an electronic device. I also feel a lot less sad. Some of this may be because I started my walks again. I have more energy and I also think it has made me think more clearly. I hope this also helps my sinus cavities. They get bad this time of year. I have a treadmill I use because it is very cold outside right now. Last night Dan and mom were in the living room and I said I was going for my walk. Mom asked if I was going to walk outside or use the walking machine. I said I’m going to use the walking machine. Now that is what I am going to call it, the walking machine. I thought it was funny enough to post on Facebook so I did, I got one like. Oh well I have all day to get more I guess. I don’t post on Facebook much anymore anyway.

The Facebook post with only one like.

Thursday February 22, 2024

Start over. That phrase is so scary to people they always fear and loathe starting over. It’s understandable I guess especially if it’s an experiment you’ve been working on for years. It fails then you think, ‘now I’ve got to start over from square one.’ Years of research aren’t wasted though. During that time things were learned like, what doesn’t work. I also think in life starting over multiple times is important, but only when you are starting over on yourself. Looking at things about yourself differently and how you can improve those things is healthy. Never fear starting over, never fear change and stop doubting yourself. You can do this.

Saturday February 22, 2025

I woke up early but I don’t think I am going to stay awake. I am very hungry. After I eat something I’ll probably go back to sleep. My leg hurts and I think I overworked the muscle. I noticed that I tense up my right groin muscle a lot. Like for no reason. I have to tell myself to relax it. My shoulders too, I scrunch them up and the muscles in between my shoulders start to hurt pretty bad. I guess I should just try to relax more. Just take a deep breath. It’s hard though when you have so much to get through on any given day. I don’t think people who know me realize how much pressure I put on myself to get things done. Last night I did work on the story I’m writing. I like how it’s turning out but I’m not sure what to do with it? Do I try to get it published? I mean, I guess that’s my end goal if I am being honest. So I guess this year I will try.

Sunday February 23, 2025

OK, so it is Sunday. I have been doing good this week. I started walking for 30 minutes each day this week but I decided to take weekends off from walking. Because you need to rest, but today I might since I have such a hard time falling asleep on Sunday evenings. We will see though, I may be very tired, so I wouldn’t need to walk but we will see. Oh and my mom changed the name of the treadmill to the walking machine, so that’s what it is now. So tonight I may take a walk on the walking machine. I am going to work on my story today. I did yesterday too, I like the way it is turning out and I want to post it somewhere for people to read. Next week I am going to spend even more time working on it, it is a fantasy story I guess not about me at all. That is what makes it easy to write. I am proud of myself for sticking with it and not stopping.