So today I am putting my journal entry here.

This is how I’m feeling this February 12, 2025.

I was watching the news this morning because I wanted to see what the weather was going to be like today. Staring at the TV, I zoned out and started to think about what needed to get done today and I completely missed the weather.

I did catch it just now though, it is going to get cold. Down in the teens. Ugh, I don’t like cold weather. I never have. In the month of February and until daylight savings time ends, I have a hard time.

I get super emotional and sad. I’ve just had enough I guess. Everything weighs on me, I need to get my mom in to a new doctor, I need to go to a doctor, I need to clean the house and keep it clean. My boys usually need something, I just always feel like I’m failing someone.

This year I am trying very hard not to go down that rabbit hole.

Now, instead of thinking about what I didn’t finish in one day, I am going to think instead, ‘This is what I did today.’ Anything that hasn’t been finished will get done the next day. I put way too much pressure on myself to finish things that could easily be done at another time.

That is my starting point.

Enough of all that, I’ll be back tomorrow.