This week I accomplished a lot. I am writing more which was one of my unspoken resolutions for the new year. At this time last year, I was also writing in my journal but I was writing a story and that was my big mistake and why I didn’t continue, I didn’t have anywhere to write my random thoughts and musings.
Here are this week’s journal entries.

Thursday January 13, 2024

Red and Purple moved with a swiftness as they were heading to the area Red was alerting to, Purple was trying to find the mind of the people, or person, who were in danger. “Julie Snell,” Purple said. “I can’t read her though, I just hear screams.”
Red and Purple walked into the clearing where the Snell’s lived and there, laying in front of the door was Julie Snell. Red approached first, her hand on her sword. As Red searched the Snell’s home Purple knelt by Julie, “She’s dead.” Purple called out to Red, then entered the Snell’s house. Red asked, “Can you read Brian?” Purple looked around at the state of the house, “I see Doctor Sally,” She said. “What happened here?” The house was wrecked.

Monday January 13, 2025

OK Monday, it’s you and me. There’s no one else here and you will not beat me down. I am going to work today. I am going to clean up and put laundry away. I am going to clean the bathroom. Then I am going to take a shower and go to bed. So, Monday, what do you say? Are you going to let me get everything done? Or will you try to stop me? Now, let’s talk realistically. What will really happen is Monday will get the best of me, most likely I will nap after work, stay up late and be super tired tomorrow. I will attempt to keep myself awake all day so I can get back in step which will happen by Friday then the cycle starts all over again. Oh, what my life has become. Now that I am an adult I’m not at all glamorous. I thought I would be when I was younger but honestly, I never did anything to make that happen. Well, you got me Monday.

Sunday January 14, 2024

Blue and Green looked at Laura, her head was bowed. She was rocking back and forth on her feet. They focused their attention back on Bryan, they took a deep breath and put their hands on Bryan. He stopped convulsing and started breathing normally. “Bryan it’s Doctor Sally,” the doctor said. “Can you tell me what happened?” Bryan stared blankly at the sky and laid very still. Doctor Sally started rubbing his sternum “Bryan?” she said. “Bring him inside, Where’s purple?” Sally asked. “She went to a distress with Red.” Blue told Sally. “I can bring her back.” “Please,” Sally said. “Who is that?” Sally asked.

Tuesday January 14, 2025

Monday didn’t beat me! I really did clean what I said I was going to clean yesterday. I’m proud of myself. Now I will keep the plan going and clean the rest of the house today. I have a planner I use, you know, one with pages that have a calendar. I have one for personal use and one for work. I’ve done this for as long as I can remember. The one for work I put down things like when I took phone calls how many calls I took a day, now I keep track of how many cases I complete. My personal one I make to-do lists and plans in, but only for a day at a time. I’ve found that if I make plans for longer than that I don’t fulfill them. I actually got that from someone going through recovery from addiction. They do things one day at a time, it really works for me. Also not doing tasks while I am working like on my breaks, I just take the break, the other stuff can get done when work is over. I’m at the end of the page now.

Monday January 15, 2024

Doctor Sally was uncomfortable with the new visitor. Sally didn’t get scared easily, but this girl scared her and made her very uneasy. When Green and Blue dropped her off, she stood in the doorway for several minutes until Sally told her if she was going to stand there she needed to stand inside with the door closed. The girl came inside closed the door and sat in the corner. Sally didn’t have time to wonder about her now, she needed to help Bryan, who was still unresponsive. Sally set up an IV so Bryan could get fluids. She then hooked up a heart and breathing monitor everything was normal. “What happened to you Bryan?” Sally asked out loud. To her surprise the girl answered, “He saw them kill his wife. He needs the light.” Sally turned to look at her, she was still in the corner staring out the window.

Wednesday January 15, 2025

My robot vacuum tried to get in my bedroom this morning and now I think it is becoming self-aware. Really though I just moved it to another room and now it’s just fine. It’s moving around the house now. I saw a meme this morning one of those dear 2025 we tried the 14 day trial and now we want to unsubscribe and I thought, really?’ You’re that unhappy? I feel like people put too much pressure on the new year. Like they think on New Year’s Eve ‘I’ll go to bed and wake up skinny tomorrow and eat healthy, drink less, in fact all my addictions will be gone.’ Nothing happens overnight change takes time. You will not instantly be anything after one sleep. I blame the technology culture of today for the instant stuff. Now no one has to wait for anything anymore. I have decided to make changes, and I will, but I am working for them so my changes will stick.

Tuesday January 16, 2024

“What did you say?” Sally asked the girl. “Girl, what did you say?” Laura still staring out the window started visibly shaking. It was usually at this point when the torture started. She squeezed her eyes shut and buried her head in her knees. Doctor Sally squatted down next to her and said quietly, “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to scare you, what’s your name?” Laura stopped shaking but didn’t look up. Sometimes the dark ones would be nice too, “Laura,” she told Sally. “Laura my name is Sally, I want to help Bryan. Can you help me help him?” Laura looked at Sally, this could be a trick, but she didn’t try to hold Laura down and she didn’t start beating or burning her. Laura got up walked over to Bryan and put her hands on his chest, she leaned over to his ear and whispered, “Wake up, you are going to be alright, we are with you.”

Thursday January 16, 2025

There is supposed to be bad weather again. I think not until next week though. It is cold though. I have foggy brain today. I hate foggy brain. For some reason I’ve been thinking lately about comedians and how I’m so sick of the preachy ones. You know, the ones that give speeches about how kids now are so lucky and when we were kids we didn’t have computers and cell phones and we had to talk person to person blah, blah, blah. I’m like stop. Just stop. You know what’s funny? Random observations about life. Yesterday I told my son about an Iguana that got loose in some apartments his dad and I lived in before he was born. There were a couple of sightings of the iguana, and I didn’t know what happened to the iguana. We both thought it was still there, living it’s best iguana life and was becoming an urban legend with people wondering how it got there. That my friends is funny.

Wednesday January 17, 2024

Blue and Green were standing next to Purple and Red at the Snell’s residence. All four were looking down at Julie Snell. Blue looked at Purple and asked, “what happened?” Purple shook her head and said, “I can’t read her, it was dark and there were screams. Someone was saying they didn’t have any more children to take.” She paused, “It doesn’t make sense.” Blue and Green put their hands on Julie “She hasn’t had a beating heart for several hours,” Blue said. “We can’t save her.” Red crouched down next to Julie and studied her body. She took note of the way the body was laid out, there were no footprints, no evidence of anyone being there. “Do the Snell’s have a child?” she asked. “Only one,” Purple said. “But something happened to her before they came here.”

Friday January 17, 2025

Another week of work finished. I don’t know what anyone else considers the end of the week, but for me it’s Saturday and Sunday, the new week starts. I’m going to finish ‘Watership Down’ this weekend. It’s a good book. I’m really enjoying it, and I really want the rabbits to be ok and make themselves a better life. Last year about this time I shaved my head. I was tired of it, it’s so heavy when it’s long. It gets super greasy and it’s itchy like all the time. I loved it shaved, it was so great. A lot less sweaty too, hair is so hot. I want to finish my picture this weekend also, I keep looking at it in my room. I just need to sort out more colors. I am also going to think up another t-shirt design. I am thinking a frog for william. He likes frogs. I want to use fuzzy green so I may have to wait until next week to make the shirt. I can wait. One day I will be famous. Not today, today I am just a girl who writes.

Thursday January 18, 2024

Bryan’s eyes flew open, and he began thrashing around as if he was fighting something. Doctor Sally held his arms down and said, “Bryan, Bryan Snell. It’s me Doctor Sally, you’re alright, you’re in my office.” Bryan stopped thrashing and stared at Sally. “Green and Blue found you outside my office and brought you inside. You were seizing then when we got you inside, you were still.” Bryan blinked rapidly as if clearing his mind, he tried to speak, but it came out raspy and distorted, “Julie, did you find her?” “Green and Blue went to your house, Purple and Red were already there,” Sally told him. Bryan started to get up, but he was still weak, Sally was trying to keep him down. “Save Julie!” Bryan repeated it over and over.

Saturday January 18, 2025

It’s Saturday and I am up very early of course. I don’t think my body is capable of sleeping in anymore. So, since I’m up I’m writing. Yesterday I left work early because I woke up at 3 am and I was falling asleep at my desk. I was so tired it drained life out of me. I took two naps and still went to bed and slept all night. The thing is though now I’m up early and I’m still tired. I should probably go to a doctor. Maybe something is wrong, maybe not, I won’t know unless I go right? I have also been having strange dreams. One has that song in it, I don’t know who sings it, ‘I quit, I give up, nothings good enough for anybody else. It seems.’ Anyway, there were people living underground singing the song. A lot of people and I got the feeling that’s where they worked which is also where I work. Weird right?

Friday January 19, 2024

Red, Blue, Purple and Green placed Julie Snell’s body on a door and began to carry her to Doctor Sally’s office. They were silent as they walked. The death of a person in their world from something other than illness or old age was unheard of, many things were going through their minds. Now they were respecting Julie’s peace. That’s what death is, final rest, the body and mind at peace. When Doctor Sally’s office came in to view the group was startled by Bryan running out, after him came Sally shouting for Bryan to stop. The group stopped and sat Julie down, Bryan sat next to her holding her and sobbing. The women all put their hands on Bryan’s back allowing him his grief. Then out of nowhere Laura was there placing her hands on Julie’s chest.

Sunday January 19, 2025

It is Sunday! Last week I decided to start cleaning during the week so I wouldn’t have to spend my weekend cleaning. It worked out well, now I have been spending my weekend on my hobbies and writing. Also, usually around the first of the year I get depressed. I guess because I never do anything with the things I write or I’m scared that no one will like it, now I don’t care. Read it, like it, or don’t and the criticize part I’ll get over. Also, I finally slept in, I didn’t wake up until 7:10 am today. I am inching my way to noon 😊. I have not slept until noon since I was a teenager. Even then everyone was worried about me. My dad woke me up a couple times by putting a mirror under my nose to see if I was breathing. Did anyone else’s father do that? I have come to accept that I will never have a normal sleep schedule. I’m ok with that.